Up Early or Still up or up Late?

I haven't gotten much rest tonight. I am up at 4:30 but having not actually went to bed, am I still up late or just up early?? My headache is killing me. The migraine med I got on Tuesday only had 6 in the box and I took 2 a day so I was out by late last night.

The week has gone well. We have done lessons everyday faithfully. We picked up Girl Scout cookies on Monday so that has consumed a large part of our week. I am so thankful I get to be a part of this stuff with L. We had her regular Daisy meeting today. It was our snack day. Such fun times being a mom to this little girl, watching her grow and mature and develop these friendships.

Daddy Piper's health hasn't been so good this week. He thinks he has kidney stones again. He has had a rough time passing them. I have been holding on with a thread with all the stress we have faced over the last 7 months, always coming back with at least we are all healthy. Well with my headaches being debilitating and now with Daddy Piper not being well, I am about to lose it. I know God only gives us what we can handle and He is there with us every step but things are getting so hard here.

J has gotten to be such a fun little kid here lately. He has this crazy face he makes while he giggles loudly. He is really playing with L & S now. S likes to wrestle with J and gets a bit too rough for my taste but J just giggles, enjoying all the playing and hands on fun with his big brother.

S is such a Daddy's boy. With all the time home recently, Daddy Piper and S are glued at the hip. S wants to do everything with Daddy. I think this time together is so great for S. He is learning how to be a man from one of the most awesome men I have ever known. Daddy Piper shows such patience with S. He takes the time to show and explain things to S. I love seeing this bond develop.

With S being with Daddy Piper so much, L is glued to me. We have been spending alot of time alone and it has helped with her behavior. I hope I am displaying the qualities of being a good wife and mother to her, a good example most of the time. I see more and more of me in her, at that age. She is alot like me, my good and bad personality traits. A mirror, she truly is.

One of my best friends found out they are having another boy today. I am super excited for her. It is another struggle for me right now though. I am aching to have another baby. With all the turmoil we are facing, another child is not a good idea. Daddy Piper isn't on board for another either. But I am having such a hard time. I WANT ANOTHER BABY!!!!!!!

Aww. I get so down about the things we don't have (like another baby) and yet, we are continually blessed and taken care of in ways I can't even describe. I have an amazing family, a wonderfully loving husband, get to be home with my kids, homeschool our children with hubby's blessing, Thank you God for watching over us, providing for us and loving me as hugely imperfect as I am - you still love me.....